But For A Name

4 years ago.
I didn't know you, but for a name.
A number in a competition, a title of a play.
All I wanted from you was to be better than you.
To take first place.
I got what I wanted.
You congratulated me.
A pat on the back.
I terrified you, in the best way possible of course.
I didn't think I'd ever see you again.
And I didn't care.

2 Years ago.
I didn't know you, but for a name.
A face on a stage, talent and grace.
All I wanted was to know why my dad wanted me to know you.
To set us up?
I got what I wanted.
He thought we'd be friends.
We talked about the last time we saw each other
When I terrified you.
I didn't think I'd ever see you again.
And I didn't mind.

4 months ago.
I didn't know you, but for a name.
A fellow auditionee, a brilliant scene partner.
All I wanted was to get a role.
The role of a lifetime.
I didn't get what I want.
But, I stuck around.
You forgot my name.
I reminded you.
I didn't think I'd ever see you again.
But, this time I cared.

4 weeks ago.
I didn't know you, but for a name.
A bundle of talent, to much for me to handle.
All I wanted from you was a kiss.
I got what I wanted.
Your lips on mine.
Barley touching at first, building in passion.
You thanked me.
You terrified me, in the best way possible.
I only hoped to see you again.
You're on my mind.

2 weeks ago.
I know you better, not much more than your name.
Your body next to mine, asleep in your arms.
All I wanted from you was to get to the deepest parts of you.
I got what I wanted.
Your body moving with mine.
Getting to know each other inside and out.
I made you nervous, in the best way possible.
I long to see you again.
You made me feel alive.